My Greatest Fear

Yes, I have some typical fears (and maybe some atypical) ones.

I have a fear of heights, snakes, large bugs, and frogs.

I am easily startled.

But perhaps my greatest fear is that I might try to "move" God's hand.

I know, that is "dumb," right?

God is so much more powerful than I.

But I have done it many times.

Getting my way by orchestrating my circumstances such that it looks like "God's will."

Turning a trial into a sign from God that it is time to go somewhere else.

Setting out a ridiculous fleece and asking for a sign.

Perhaps it doesn't make sense to you,

but I have such intense longings sometimes,

(for children, to move away from NC,

 to have hubby in a position where he can do what he loves all the time ...)

that it is easy to want to make things happen on my own.

And then I am reminded ...

 

 

Psalm 37:7

Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him: ...

 

Lamentations 3:26

It is good that a man should both hope

and quietly wait for the salvation of the LORD.