Transformation Beyond the House

 I have led a privileged life.

Really!!

I do not believe that I have EVER lacked for anything.

God has been so good.

I have been surrounded by a father, brothers, a husband, and many friends who give and give and give.

I have worked for many things,

but I have received far and above what I could ever deserve.

And this weekend, I realized that in many ways, I have exhibited an entitled spirit.

I wandered around my brand new, beautiful home.

I looked for where things would be placed.

And in essence, I mourned the things that would not get to stay.

I no longer have the excuse that "I might need it in the next house."

As far as I know, this home is fairly permanent.

Some things could not stay any longer.

And as I thought about the things that I needed to say goodbye to,

my husband said, "I should have gotten you a bigger home."

While I was "mourning," he felt like his gift was inadequate.

He had given what we could afford.

He had given all that we needed (we are only 2 people) and actually more than we needed.

And yet, I made him feel like it was not enough.

I have apologized to God and to him.

And realized that on this Tuesday Transformation,

I am the one who needs to change.